Friday, July 29, 2011

Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Brownies

No, this is not a dream....try and wipe the drool from your chin! A friend of mine posted on Facebook that she was going to make these delicious little treats and I couldn't help myself, I had to try them out! ( Thanks Haley <3 )

Next time I think I am going to make the brownies a little thicker , there was a lot of cookie dough and not enough brownie
( which isn't necessarily a bad thing)

The raw dough is egg-free, of course. 

Want to satisfy your sweet tooth and have a little piece of heaven right on your plate?  here is the Recipe

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Thoughtful Thursday

Well it has been a while since I have updated, it has been one of those months where a lot has been going on and time has flown by! It is amazing how every aspect of your life changes once you become a parent. Your concept of Time, Money, and Love all seem to evolve.

Time becomes so precious, instead of thinking "I can't wait until January, I will finally be 21!" my thoughts go straight to "WOW by the time January gets here McKenna is going to be 18 months old!" As much as I love watching this little girl grow, it makes me tear up to think she will never be this small again. So instead of worrying about everything that needs to get done, and wishing the days would go by faster, I am learning to enjoy every. single. second.

It is sad how much time and energy we put into thinking about Money. There are so many other important things going on in the world and in our lives, yet our whole world revolves around our possessions. Don't get me wrong, I love having nice things, but instead of spending money on new clothes, shoes, and bare minerals makeup, I am constantly thinking about M's future and how we are going to provide for her financially. I am lucky enough to have a husband who works hard to put a roof over our head, food on the table, and clothes on our back; but the thought of "how can we make more" always runs through my head, and for that I am somewhat shameful. Do we have enough in our account for bills? Do we have enough to put money aside in M's savings this month? And lets not forget our own savings... What I keep reminding myself is that I have a beautiful, healthy, and happy family, and that is enough. My point is not about purchasing things anymore it is about making sure my bills are paid and my family is fed, everything else is just EXTRA.

Love, has become a constant in my life. I never knew I was capable of caring so much for another person until I met my sweet angel. She brings me the most happiness and pure joy I have ever felt, and I am so thankful to be given the opportunity to be her Mama. I wrote a journal entry a long time ago, I was heart broken and venting...but there is a passage that I read every once in a while that makes me smile. I was writing about my two greatest loves, ones I never even knew existed 
Those great loves, the ones that play an epic role in your life, but bring so much uncertainty, a love so doting even the most amorous heart skips a beat, it is within those moments you find that love is not something you practice, or learn; it is something inherent, a gift you were given, one that wasn't meant for you to know when you would receive it, or who you would bestow it upon. It is something above our aptitude and will, an endowment so sublime it is foolish to negate its beauty and power in our lives.

So, Thank you, McKenna...for changing the way I look at life, and letting me see what is really important <3

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Happy Birthday My Sweet Little Girl

Well, the day has come! My sweet little baby is ONE.....ALREADY! I can't believe it has already been one year! She is still my sweet little bebe, who loves her milky, her paci, and lots and lots of snuggles! Although she seems to be getting bigger by the second, no matter how big she gets she will always be my sweet little baby.

Brent and I were talking about the day I went into labor, and I remember that day so vividly, it seems like it was just yesterday! I went to the Dr. for my 36 week appointment on Wednesday, and the doctor and I discussed my options for labor since M hadn't flipped yet...we decided that if she did not flip by my due date ( July 24th) I would have a C-section on the 29th. So for the next few days I baked, cleaned, and organized Kenna's room a Friday I was exhausted and slept all day. I woke up around 10AM, ate (of course), watched some TV, and went back to sleep until 1PM when I woke up because I had to pee...I went to the bathroom, sat down, and nothing happened...I thought well maybe if I lift up my belly a little bit that will take some pressure off of my bladder....well I lifted up that HUGE belly of mine and GUSHHHH, my water broke. At first I wasn't sure if I just had a really full bladder, but when I stood up and the water kept coming, I knew right then I would get to meet my little baby soon enough! I called Brent at work and told him my water broke, but he thought I was joking....after a few times of telling him, "NO BABE! I AM SERIOUS! YOU NEED TO COME HOME!" He finally believed me and  rushed home. He arrived in a panic, but with a HUGE smile on his face and helped me back my bag. We headed off to the hospital where I had an emergency C-Section and delivered a 7 lb. 2 oz. precious baby girl at 6:24 PM.

So today we celebrated her birth, the day we were blessed with a healthy, beautiful, smart, and adventurous little girl. I speak for both Brent and myself when I say our lives will never be the same, we are both so happy, and PROUD to be the parents of this amazing little human. Happy Birthday McKenna Renee <3 you make my life beautiful.